I Shall Believe

I been reading some things that other women wrote that have fibromyalgia, and I have talked to some to. One thing that most of them have in common is that their husband or boyfriend left them. My husband and I have such a great relationship that and I don't think he is going anywhere. He really is my best friend. It is coming up on our 9th wedding anniversary. We meet when I was 19 well just before I turn 20 and thing took off like a wild fire. I moved in after only 3 months, he asked me to marry him 2 months later we started trying to have a baby that fall March 2002 we found out we there was a little one on the way got married on April 2, 2002. So in just one year we meet fell in love and got married. To this day my heart still skipped a beat when I look at him. His mom set us up kinda, see I worked with her he came walking in one day I looked at her said " Who the f*ck is that" she said "my son" later he asked her the same thing about me. He ended up asking me to dinner a few days later, and like I said things moved fast. He was everything I said I would never fall in love with. He was not my normal type. I think that is why we work. But I have to tell the truth after listening to all these women I wonder if he is going to get fed up with his 30yr old wife that is pain and complains about it. I don't know what I would do without him he is my soul mate. I was wild and out of control before I met him. He pulled me in, and showed me that I am worth being loved. So as we near are 9th wedding anniversary even if it's a lie say it will be alright and I shall believe

                                                            I SHALL BELIEVE
                                                                    by: Sheryl Crow


Come to me now
And lay your hands over me
Even if it's a lie
Say it will be alright
And I shall believe
I'm broken in two
And I know you're on to me
That I only come home
When I'm so all alone
But I do believe

That not everything is gonna be the way
You think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly you won't give up on me
And I shall believe
And I shall believe

Open the door
And show me your face tonight
I know it's true
No one heals me like you
And you hold the key

That not everything is gonna be the way
You think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me

Never again
would I turn away from you
I'm so heavy tonight
But your love is alright
And I do believe

That not everything is gonna be the way
You think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly
You won't give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe

This song keeps playing over and over in my mind. I need to get what those women keep saying out of my mind. I know what John and I have is something that many people only dream about.  He is the love of my life. I believe that we will be there holding each other when we are both in our 90's.

                                                                JD
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